technically speaking, i'm beat. my head isn't exactly working at the usual locomotive speed. -frowns- who am i kidding? my brain usually works at that sedantary pace, with rather frequent spurts of sudden bothering to think. muahaha. i can think when i want to. it's just that usually my life seems so much more happier when i don't think.

anw, i just read a discussion at International Herald Tribune online, and let me tell you this: i'm loving that website as much as The Economist. it's so intriguing how these news/discussions can actually make me think. or rather, make me conscious that i'm thinking. [fine, this is all economics fault. i don't even seen opportunity cost literally nowadays. it's not a question of whether if i spend $1.50 on a chocolate waffle, that $1.50 is my cost. my actual cost is actually the things that i could spend on with that $1.50, like buy my notes, or add it up to my savings for a HSM3 lock diary. ehh, the lock diary is so cute and cool, okayyy! i saw it at taka and i was like, i wanttt! alongside the hannah montana bags! umai, you know what i'm talking about!]

back to the IHT discussion. the topic was on whether the US laws on drugs like marijuana are actually too tough, and with the election of a drug czar from a state that's known for its lax drug laws, could it be that the US policy is shifting to a different gear? i had always thought that criminilazing recreational drugs should be the way to go, but then again, you hear of drug addicts being addicted to codeine and subutex - decriminalized drugs. so how valid is it really to have drugs criminalized? then again, what constitutes dangerous recreational drugs and 'harmless' ones?

i'd love to sit down and think about it, y'know. there's always cost and benefit to criminalizing or decriminilazing these said drugs. and oh yeah, you know, talking about cost-benefit, this struck me earlier: how come some ppl still take action despite knowing that the cost is so much more higher than benefit? hmm.. food for thought..

@ 6:10 AM

i found a brand new favourite subject: Economics! why? cos it's so interesting! i mean, i never knew that the way people behave regarding scarce resources could be so fascinating. and the fundamental principles are all applicable to our daily lives, especially decision-making. it's like all of us have been using economics without even realising it. and nowadays i can't read a piece of news blindly without sitting down afterwards and considering what was being written. in a way, that's a good thing. heheh. and oh, economics have nothing to do with money. seriously. it's more of like a thinking process to uhh ... make you feel smarter. although technically it is supposed to make you smarter. haha! what the hell...

anyway, i just read the news that Obama plans to increase the number of US troops in Afghanistan by 17 000 to counter the increasing insurgency there. i don't know.. i mean, the US$787 billion stimulus package was just recently passed. and we all know that the US is actually in heavy debts. i mean, to employ 17 000 more troops there. sure, for short-term, it might appear that there's more manpower for the military to take charge of the situation there. but think about it. should 17 000 more lives be risked? the situation in afghanistan has been the same for years - it doesn't seem to show any sign of letting up or improving. maybe the taliban is more or less eradicated, but it only seems to give rise to more insurgent groups. in a way, the more troops added, the more insurgency occurs. there's no doubt that it is entirely impossible (and i dare say evil) if the US completely pull out of the country. after all, the afghanistan military is still in the process of being built albeit at a very slow pace. so surely they require guidance and assistance from US and NATO troops before they are able to take on the insurgents on their own.

i have no idea why i'm thinking this, but what if more afghans are joining the insurgent groups as compared to the national military? wouldn't that sort of render all this effort rather, well, useless? okay, to be honest, the first thing that struck me when i read the news was, why is the US risking the lives of 17 000 more soldiers and risking their already shaky monetary situation in order to finance these soldiers? of course, common sense decress that it was to help out in afghanistan as per the request of the NATO commander (and the US sent 3000 troops shorter). but really, is there any way that the insurgency issue there in afghanistan be countered without making use of more troops?

okay, know what? i shall go think about that last part. seriously. there has to be another way to tackled this problem...

@ 6:16 AM

two weeks in jc and i already know how many of my friends that i've made in my life are really my friends. and trust me, i can count them on one hand. oh wells. it's like that y'all - to quote mariah carey. muahahaha! but some peeps will defo know if i'm referring to them. if you realise you're on the true friends list, bravo!! if you realise you're not, trust me, i'm not too bothered cos hey, the saying goes that you can have an army of acquantainces but little friends.

anw, how's acjc ya might be asking? it's kinda cool.. haha! nice uni, nice bunch of people for my OG, and so far i managed to get it in my head that i've to revert to the learning-on-my-own style. independent learning. see? i got listen and remember okayy.

WHEEEE!! UMAIIIIII!!! besok! besok! besok!

okay, i am shutting up now. as if. muahahaha! now i'm off to crap with my bestie!

@ 6:13 AM

okayy, so today was like day 4 of orientation day. finale's tomorrow, there's some campfire thingey that every other school has. oh wells. anyway, just now went for OG outing with Dagonets! we headed off to mindcafe at prinsep street. okay, they have more games than boat quay's, but the latter's easier to find. haha!

anw, played taboo with all of them (my group won!! 40 guesses. oh yeahhh!). and then we broke up into 2 groups. wei en (or famously known as ip mun) moved over to play Dirty Mind (omg, it's hard not to think sick playing that game) and sheryl joined my group (me, leon, ying ting, joel, ben, karyn, vivian and sheryl) and then we played three rounds of jenga truth or dare! and yes, it was crazy. joel is just super funny - he reminds me of my cousin! so is leon! ying ting reminds me of sam (haha! yes, sam! be honoured!) and vivian reminds me of melody! aiya, basically they're all really cool people to hang with. period. muahaha.

and then umai msged me to tell me that she's sending our pics to oktolive! WHEEE! masuk tv! masuk tv! masuk tv! yayyyayyy!

you know, since last night i was talking to her about how much we miss woodgrove pri, then i discovered haziq misses it too! so does felicia! anw, basically, we were just recapping how fun fun fun fun fun things were back then with the entire gang. HAHA! y'know, AC mass rally only brings back memories of wgps and two super famous cheers/jeers that originated from the gang! hehehehe! NOBODY can beat the crazy lot of us back then man.

the jeer goes like this:
boo sama dia! BOO!
boo lagi sikit! BOO!
boo lagi sekali! BOO!
BOO BOO BOO!

muahahaha! mann, that was popular. and naturally, it's used more in classes and PE lessons than sports day. hahah! and i still remember the people who loved that jeer.

then there was this heck care cheer: heran tak heran, goyang tak goyang. *pts to a certain somebody* and i still know who always said that. haha!

and then after that umai and i reminisced about a certain perasan someone. haha! kekek seyy, lagi2 lps dah share dgn umai al-kisah si sophie psl org tu. HAHAHAHA! tu lah, perasan lagi, perasan lagi. kan dah kena.

and oh, umai shared a cheer that 5F came up with once during maths lesson for that certain perasan someone. we shall call him Somebody. HAHA! 'what say you say i say! Somebody! Somebody! Is the best!' HAHAHA! tak habis2 tau dia tu perasan. ish3. pa'kal dah lama aku kenal dia.

woodgrove rocks lah seyyy! it was the best environment i could ever ask for - where singlish reigned, and the entire malayness of my life just felt so on! and crazy crazy crazy people that i remember and i still love, cherish and treasure till this very day!!! yes, more than 20 of them. haha!

WOODGROVERS, wa caya sama lu!!

@ 6:38 AM

It never crossed my mind at all.
It's what I tell myself.
What we had has come and gone.
You're better off with someone else.
It's for the best, I know it is.

*But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside,
And I turn around.
You're with her now.
I just can't figure it out.

**Tell me why you're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.
Not over you....

Memories, supposed to fade.
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go.
Didn't think it'd be this hard.
Should be strong, movin' on.

*
**

it took me years to figure out that i had been in love with you for years. do i have to take years until i know what i have to do?

@ 6:56 AM